mmm, so long, no entries. i'm changing.

the week has flown by like a dove in the wind. it seems like a blur to me, it's hard to remember. every day is the same, but every day is such a beautiful drag. i just know that one day my moments will stop and enrapture me for just a second, and i will be thankful.

i go to school, i make all A's. this inner desire of success pulls me in all directions. i am like a robot. i don't have emotions, i can think of course, but i just do what i am told. i do what will make me successful. i am a smart girl. i go to dance practice. i have beautiful friends who are nice and make me feel better about myself. i have so many things to do that i no longer wrap myself up into my faults. i can appreciate life in general. the right kinds of people are just so uplifting.

we finally won the football game on friday night. it was so much fun. the "evil" ex boy [that boy, as i had dubbed him] was there. in fact, he goes to every game. and we say hi to each other and that is all. i wish i could say more. i wish i could tell him thank you for being so wrong to me. for making me into who i am today. for leaving me alone so that i could find someone so much better. i tell people that i hate 'that boy' every day, but i don't. he'll always be special to me in that funny sort of way. hmm...moving along.

after the game, hollie and i spent girlie, blissful fun. we went to waffle house with lots of other people. we danced and were silly. we got waffle house hats and took a picture. too fun.

i also found out that t.j. likes counting crows. i was amazed. i figured that football + good music didn't really mix. apparently he went to the same concert i went to back in july. i think i will befriend him in english class now, especially since he sits right next to me and all.

i got home tres late on friday, and force-fed myself some sleep. woke up finally at 2:30pm. lauren ann and i rented spun, the drug movie, and watched it. it was good. <3 brittany murphy. then boy came over. we went to burger king to eat. we got stared at by scary mexicans. i hate being stared at, it gets very old. we came to my house and watched 12 monkeys. i fell asleep in his lovely arms before the movie was over. he left at midnight. i love him.

today i am going to work with jenny. she asked if i wanted to go because she has individuals with 3 girls, and she offered to split the paycheck with me. i figure it's something to do. plus, what is better than bonding with a friend that you wish you knew better?

i must go before i am late. toodles <3.