yes well, everything is settled now...

i just don't know what to do with this thing. i want to lock it, but then i want to be able to meet new people. i want to end it, but so much of me is sitting here on this website, it's uncanny. i want to keep it, but some people just CANNOT be trusted. i can't even say the truth in here anymore,...i never TRULY write about what i want and how i feel and that is just such a burden to me.

i just don't know what to do.

i may not be updating for a very long time. i haven't updated these past eleven days because i have literally been THAT busy. i'm seriously not trying to avoid it.

anyway, i'll be going to new york on saturday and i'll be gone for a week so it works out either way. i'm going to go dance at macy's thanksgiving day parade [again], so i would greatly appreciate if you would tune into the tv on thanksgiving morning and watch me dance! eric watched last year and i ended up being front and center and all over the camera...heh :D

but at any rate, thank you to all of you here who have been a positive influence on me...eric, teri, jessica, etc. and daniel as well...i hope you're doing okay.

and as for the rest of you who aren't really supposed to be here, this hiatus is what you have caused.

don't be surprised if in my next entry i claim that i am locking. toodles.

[[but don't worry because special people WILL have access!]]