i'm really confused.

i have no doubt in my mind that i am wild, crazy, head over heels for this guy. the problem is that i don't know how he feels.

there is a possibility that he feels really deeply for me. i have some clues that point towards that. yet i also have all of these insecurities popping up that i had no clue existed in me.

this is what i hate about liking someone new. it's not a good feeling to me, until i can get something real out of it. until then, i'm just left thinking "he hates me, he'll be gone tomorrow." i blame this on many relationships i've had with males.

in the back of my mind, i'm living in knowing that i should stop comparing him to everyone else, and just let this play how it's supposed to. why wouldn't he be crazy about me? i just really want to know. i want him to say it.

if i have to waste all of these emotions again, i think i'll go crazy.