so we were talking about death today, and he actually said he'd probably kill himself if i died, and it's sort of scary yet really nice to have someone rely on you that much.

but yet, he cannot say i love you. explain that one to me, please.

today he actually said, "if we do live together someday, we can get a kitty and a puppy" [since we both want both]

i bought him a card this morning and wrote a love note in it and left it on his car.

i just feel like i can never give to him how much he gives to me.

and i guess that's the beauty of love.