oh lordy.

my period is late and it is freaking me the hell out. i probably shouldn't be this worried because i am on birth control and he has not came inside me. so...i'm good, right? i've still got a few more days for it to come. but seriously...i'm so afraid.

i don't know what on earth would happen if i got pregnant.

okay i don't want to talk about that anymore.

on monday, zack when to visit his mom in mckinney for the day, and he ended up at the hospital for some sort of pain in his stomache/chest area. the doctors couldn't find anything wrong with him, thank god. mark and i went to pick him up. his mom thinks i am beautiful. zack has been feeling fine since.

apparently his mom asked him lots of questions about me. including if we were going to get married.

...our two monthiversary is in a week.
and still no i love you, either.

but yet, he talks about marrying me. we've already named our first dog. we were looking up breeds last night, and i am really set on a maltese. so precious! anyway...

there's been talk about moving in together in august when both of our leases are up. i don't know how i feel about that. it would be really nice, definitely convenient, and a lot cheaper. but i'm not sure i'd feel right about it, being not married, or even engaged. and i don't know how my family would feel either. i guess in the springtime i will start worrying about it instead of now. who knows, things could get really serious really fast. and that's not a problem.

he might be "the one."

thank god i have this journal to be honest in.