good news, my period has come. no baby. thank jesus, literally. i prayed about twenty times a day. i feel blessed.

bad news - cramps like hell! i hate vaginas.

zack...confuses me. last night when i told him, he exclaimed "ahh! i love you! we're getting married like, right now" and of course he was just being his silly excited self. but BABY. take it easy! :]

i was really sick last night, and i had to go to dallas for a dance performance last night for my class. so he got dressed up all nice, and took me out. it was really sweet. the dances were amazing...martha graham's choreography! she is my shero. zack did not even bitch at all, either. suh-weet. but back to the important stuff!

during intermission we were talking and he wrote on the program "i <3 you" and i was just, "whatever" [playfully]. the lights went out to start again and he said "i've been thinking about it..." i asked, "and you're going to tell me now?" he said we'd talk about it later.

so OF COURSE, on the way home, he makes mark meet us at IHOP, because the boy is obsessed with pancakes. hah. it is not until way later in bed that we start talking about it. and again, he "doesn't know" if he is in love with me. what a tease! that is torture. don't set me up if you're not going to just say it. he thinks he is 95% sure that it is a yes. so i told him to stop talking about it, and we went to sleep. i need 100% and i will wait until my dying day for him to say it. i don't know what he is so afraid of.

also, he said if i was pregnant, we would've gotten married.

that's really scary.